Scary Words

Triage is a scary word. Especially if you might possibly have a cancerous condition. I called a doctors office for an appointment told them what I was being referred for and they asked me to have my current doctor fax their notes over so they could do TRIAGE to get me a sooner appointment. fuck me.
I am not scared of dying. lets be clear. I am scared of leaving my kids in the condition I was in when my mother died. I was completely unprepared. of course, who can be prepared for losing their mom. Mary is only 11. What the hell is that going to do to her Psyche? Thank God Bill is the kind of parent he is. Totally involved. She has three older sisters who love her.
I worry about the financial struggle that this will cause Bill.
This sucks.
At least its not lung cancer. LOL